Originally written Sep 25, 2019
Jesus it's been a while since an update. Self improvement is continuing steadily, mostly from circumstance rather than any real effort on my part but I'll take it. Had another dream that seemed important though for the life of me I have no idea what it means. The short version is this person who took the form of my friend (despite me knowing it wasn't him) was trying to convince me he was real, I proved he wasn't and he got angry. He summoned up some kind of strength, became a shadow person, and attacked me. The strange part was that the attack seemed actually threatening, like losing would be harmful in real life. Fortunately the dream had gone lucid a little while prior and I defeated him with crazy dream magic. I let him live though not super sure why. I think in some weird way I wanted a friend even if he was demonic or whatever. I dunno still deconstructing that one. The rest of the dream is of no real consequence except for the part where I "woke up". I have several tests to check for reality and one of them failed to detect I was dreaming which is a little concerning. Otherwise it's worth mentioning that this is the second fully lucid dream I've had in my adult life. Most the time dreams start breaking down soon after lucidity is achieved. So it was kind of cool.
On another note I've decided I want to go on an extended road trip. Just take off, sleep in my car and figure it out as I go. I think February is the ideal time. That's it for now. Also though since I'm fairly certain no one's reads any of this if you actually do go through this novel of a profile let me know, I'm kind of curious. If you read all or even most of this AND sent a like, for love of God send a message. I always assume people just saw some green fire and swiped right or whatever and are gonna bail as soon as they see my dumpster fire of a profile. So if that's not you let me know.
· Thu Jan 23, 2020 @ 02:40am · 0 Comments