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What a year.

Before the year ends I would like to hopefully be rid of all the situations that cause damage to my soul and energy. I won't be open to talking of past dramas, or situations if they come up from people who want to stir up the pot. I will not be joking when I seem like I'm acting stupid. I will literally not hear them. cheese_whine
I've come to realize how potent my power of being a Heyoka Empath is and am on the path of understanding how to harness this power without being engulfed in the mirrored emotions that come from mirroring actions. I found myself in a whirlwind of other's lives, mirroring people even when it wasn't necessary. They say Heyoka's are natural at knowing what other's need, and deep down I knew what I needed to do in situations, but my mortal form for some damn reason didn't trust itself to act as it should. I now see it was years of abuse from multiple angles, but I am coming out of those situations stronger the more I'm not holding on to those who abused me. Nor mirroring said abuse. It is a long process to come out of those types of patterns and behaviors, but it's worth it. I hope to help as many humans as I can with the gifts I've been given. I am not special, but I do have a heightened sensitivity that I notice isn't all that common in this realm. Somehow I just know things I shouldn't, but it's a deep down feeling. Awakened to who and what I am, and awake to those who wished to toy with my mold-able mind. If I didn't have this power deep within me to see beyond, I don't know if I would still be here on this plane of existence. I honestly thought I would lose myself to the darkness. Thanks to the power in me, and a lot of help from my spouse, I come out stronger and ready for anything. Sometimes I stumble on myself or realize I have more growing to do, but I know I'll learn until I die even if my death comes 100 years from now. I'll never stop being a student of life.


Things I'm working on in 2020:
-Becoming whom I wish to be.
-Helping others in any area they feel I can help them with.
-Hallowed Ground (a story, game, hopefully cartoon one day)
-Finding my spirit family, my squad
-Planning a wedding
-Standing strong and not acknowledging those who wished to snuff my fire (is saying that counter intuitive? haha) I feel empowered declaring it, so whatever.