I am writing in this journal to alleviate the anxiety in my brain and the weight on my chest. I am afraid of death specifically afraid of my loved ones(mom, sister, best friends) passing away. I can say I have lost three significant people in my life my best friends mom, my friend Pedro, and my adoptive father Vonnie. My fear is the list will only grow longer and I don't want to experience that kind of pain again. I could not bear to lose someone again, I know it will happen eventually and that sucks. On the bright side I have time to spend with my mother and my loved ones its just the inevitable dread that gets to me. Does anyone else feel like there should be more time, that if we didn't have all these responsibilities that we could get all the time in the world with them before they go? In the end I feel like we all end up alone and that scares the jam out of me. That's all I have to say for now-Crash