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it's been years since i last wrote in here and maybe i should start writing again to fill in this void of emptiness i have inside me. Where do i start?
I hurt people....i hurt so many people that i deserve to be punished. The one or two people that loved me dearly i hurt them and now I'm nothing but the past. I hurt someone I thought that would never come back only to realize he is the one......my soulmate, the love of my life and makes me so happy when i get into a conversation with him. His kisses make me feel like I'm safe and home, that there are no worries and that everything will be okay. Well I know he won't ever read this but I lost him and he's trying his best to slowly cut me out of his life......so much pain I've caused him and so much i sacrifice for others i don't really do for me......

I lose everything. .....there is no happiness for me......i don't think there will ever be.....

crying is helping me right now.....i have so much to let out and scream....I am broken....I am broken ...I am broken.....