This week was very productive and I'm proud of myself for getting a good load of work done.

However, life in general has been eating away at me slowly. I keep thinking of my other situations that aren't getting any better and the only plausible solutions, none of which I really like. I don't want to live like my mother and her husband; hawking s**t just to eat. No bueno. I know that's a pretty bratty way of looking at it; you gotta do what you gotta do. But I don't want to get used to living that type of lifestyle.

I'm trying my best to stay positive, but it's difficult. I'm just keeping my eye on the prize: that goddamn degree. Once I get that, I'll have so many more options for employment. I'm also worried about the length of unemployment that I'll be enduring while I'm in school. I'm hoping that by the time I graduate, I'm not denied jobs because of the time I haven't worked.

-Sigh- There's just so much going on in my mind and I had such a good day. Now I just feel like a failure all over again, even though I'm working towards a better future.