Why am I so goddamn depressed. Everyday I always wish I would've died then. Being alive sucks. There's so much pressure for everything. And why is it so difficult to find someone who can not mess with my emotions. I just want to rest. I always get that sinking feeling in my chest and it's so painful. It hurts.. I don't want to feel anything anymore. And I'm going to end up killing myself eventually. I already know that. I can't do anything... Why am I so weak..... If I wasn't then I wouldn't cause any problems. I wouldn't expect things. It hurts... Please. Just let me die....... Just leave me alone... I don't want to see anything anymore.