So this past month, I've just been trying to stimulate my brain. During the process, I learned so much and I have this new motive that seems to stem from wanting to know more. It just reminds me of how people use the internet for the dumbest things lol. Anyway, I find myself ready for each day when I wake up in the morning. I don't feel like its all a waste as much as I used to. I mean, there are still things I believe are a total waste of time and energy and thought. But I myself will simply not engage in such affairs. For now, I am limited to just a laptop, but I plan to have my own super computer sometime in the "far" future. Hell, I might even have a small laboratory. But see? This is what I mean. At first, I just imagined nothing and wanted to do nothing, cared about nothing. But I want this for myself and I think I can do it.