why am i looking at old journal entries and they are 100% OLD ******** CONVERSATIONS W/RYAN.

the same ******** Ryan that like completely said ******** you and blocked me on everything like 2 months ago AFTER LITERALLY 13 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP and wouldn't even ******** tell me WHY

like literally the longest i've ever had a friend for and just ********

and now all these goddamn memories are coming back. like how goddamn happy i always was when talking to you. STOP i don't want to remember this s**t, ******** off Ryan, GET OUT OF MY HEAD. i dont ******** want you here anymore