Lately, I'm not sure what it is but I just have not felt like doing anything...like at all.
I'm currently in the midst of a bit of a whirlwind. Between desperately trying to move, trying to get this suspension lifted from my license, trying to stay sane and keep my mind right, looking for a second job, my friends being annoying AF, Donald harassing me about his practice and running back and forth to Philadelphia...I'm feeling a) crazy and b) frustrated. Not to mention, I haven't been to the gym in ages (but this tends to happy this time every year -- summer starts creeping up and I realize that I haven't gone to the gym since like...last year xp ), I still need to find a scam, I need to read, take care of myself, finish planning this trip (I just have to get the schedule together and figure out what we're going to eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner each dayand touch up on Google Analytics and finish that Adwords certification.
I keep thinking that once I find a place and/or get a second job things will start falling into place. That's definitely not a promise though. And when I get this second job, I really don't want to work more than 15-20 hours a week at it.
At this point, I'm not really sure what the solution is. To find a place? To make myself get up and go to the gym? I think both of those are good starts, but I think I definitely underestimated how hard this would be. Tragic.
Alas, I just don't feel like doing anything ever. I'm stressed and frustrated because now I have a court date with three incarcerable charges: driving with a suspended license, possessing a suspended license and driving without a valid license....two of those sound like the same charges...but that's just me *rolls eyes*
And is it just me or do I always want to get back into writing. xp Whatevs. I need to be more aggressive when looking for a place. I think that will be my main priority after the hiking trip this weekend. Like...I can't go back to Philly until I put a deposit down on an apartment...seriously. It's just hard doing it inbetween work and everything else.
Not to mention, I have to go to Donald's afterwork today because he wanted to have a follow-up discussion and I JUST. DON'T. FEEL LIKE IT. Especially after having to go to from Work to Baltimore to Centreville, MD back to Baltimore then down to Waldorf. It literally took a whole half a tank of gas and I didn't go to bed until after midnight...Blah. I don't even feel like having sex...even thought inherently, I always wantttttttt to. I just don't feel like going through the processes and the motions. And that's typically directly connected to me not working out. Ugh.
I'm venting and ranting...I have even more stuff to vent and rant about (i.e. my friends, work, and other random frustrations) but I'll cut it off here for now.
Mood: Frustrated scream
Music: "No Tears Left To Cry" - Ariana Grande
· Wed Apr 25, 2018 @ 09:33pm · 0 Comments