Has been nothing but exhausting, stressful, upsetting, and scary.
Dealing with the loss of my beloved Boris, to dealing with cancer in my immediate family and the bills that follow that - to the stress that's pulling my family apart and making enemies of each other.
My closest friend has been absent, and not someone I can lean on it these times so I'm just stuck worrying every night, and most of the day - with no outlet to talk to anyone about anything. I'm that woman that smiles and cracks a joke, when all I want to do is curl into a ball under my covers and cry. I've been the one holding down a household while my family deals with fighting cancer, I picked up the slack when things needed to be done - bills to be paid, animals tended to, errans ran,
I'm just tired and alone, and all I can honestly do is escape from my own mind for awhile. Play a game or dress up my avatar to numb myself for awhile.. I'm a little distant and sometimes scatterbrained but, at least you know why now.
Not that anyone honestly . . . notices.
Anyways, sometimes it's just good for me to let things out like this. I often have a hard time actually verbalizing my thoughts and emotions out loud. Writing is so much better for me, in this sense
So, if you would please - just give me a thought, a good vibe, a prayer if you're the prayin' type. I'll appreciate it more than you'll know. Thanks
~Later Days <3
· Sat Mar 10, 2018 @ 01:00am · 0 Comments