It's 2018. I'm 22. I have a big life ahead of me. What do I want to do? I'm studying Fashion Design because I love fashion and designing clothes, but why do I still feel lost sometimes? Why do I have moments where I wonder if fashion is really the industry I want to be working in? Is it because I'm afraid I won't be happy in it once I'm done with school? Is it because I fear there might be something better out there for me? How would I know that? There'll always something way better out there, right? Then I shouldn't worry about such a thing. Goodness... All of this is driving me insane. I shouldn't be heading to sleep right now. I have a photo shoot tomorrow for my team collection. I'm tired. Why don't I want to go to bed despite this fatigue? I'm exhausted of feeling exhausted. This stress is unbearable. What am I doing? Why am I feeling all of this? This is completely crazy.
Boy, I'm just glad I'm not worrying over a boy. I've been feeling that a lot last week and it drove me nuts. Love is such an awful thing to stress about. Feelings and everything... Man. My heart was not having fun last week. I was thinking about this guy I've been seeing quite frequently too much. Something happened today that made me stop thinking about the guy, though, which I'm surprised helped me stop thinking about it all. At least now I know what to do if I want to stop thinking about a guy. Hopefully it will work again next time I start having the feels for a man.
· Sun Feb 18, 2018 @ 04:27am · 0 Comments