It's strange.... but even through all of the pain I've experienced, all of the doubt, the hard words, tears, and denials.... somehow I still have hope that tomorrow can change things. I don't know why I believe so strongly in these feelings. I want to keep hanging on. I want to make him happy. I want to see his smile. How can I have such blind faith in such a hopeless cause? Somehow... I do. I'm an idiot, right? Still.... day by day, I think of him. I miss him. I'll be patient with his feelings... I won't say another thing. Not until the day things change. If they ever change. No matter what... I'm here. Whatever happens... I'm here.