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{..Things} I want you to know.
..Anything goes.
Your mind can be a dark place..
"People think depression is sadness, crying or dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again."


For years depression has been a struggle of mine and combating it with habits, schedules, and time consuming activities makes it a little bit easier. But when one thing falls out of place or is removed, you only have so much time to replace it, before the darkest parts at the back of your mind start to crawling to the front of your mind...

And then you're just stuck in this monotonous loop where the things you used to love just don't excite you anymore, breathing is boring, rolling over in bed is a lot of work, crying brings more comfort than smiling, and when the world around you, even though its full of life and color, just looks like a sad canvas.. It goes on and on and on and on; it feels like there is no way to get out of it. It really makes you wonder about all the things in life, their purposes, their meaning and when nothing makes sense, sleep is always the answer.

Just a downward spiral into the abyss of nothingness. Where nothing makes total sense, gray is the color of your soul, and just the sound of silence.. Where my day begins and where my day ends..

[Auf Wiedersehen]


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