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So here we are in 2018...Christmas has come and gone, and, I can say that I actually had a nice holiday! My wife and I made our first Christmas Dinner and it ended up being a success.
It was funny calling my Mom about it because she said she was 'proud of me'. She said that she never saw me as the homely-type, making big dinners for guests and etc. I have to laugh because I never thought I would be that person either. I always saw myself as a dominate partner...the husband-type if you want to get stereotypical. Still, that just goes to show how much things can change, and how much people change as they age.

But we had some friends over, we opened gifts, we played board games, and then we watched some movies. It was small, and it was fun. I never was one for big crowds so this was much more my style. Then Christmas came the day after the dinner and I opened gifts over Skype with some close buddies. Again, it was small and it was nice.

New Year was nothing much to brag about. There was no fancy dinner- no parting or inviting people over. We watched the ball drop 10 minutes before it fell, and played video games the rest of the time. For the first time ever I decided not to write a reflection note on Facebook because, I didn't need to reflect.

If anything, I have tried to move on from the past weighing me down. I don't feel the need to reflect in order to justify my decisions anymore. If anything, I wonder why I felt I had to justify my happiness in the first place? I guess that shows how much of my life has been controlled by other people... stare

But it's not like that anymore, and has not been that way for the past 3 years.

I think the only reason I even made a reflection last year was because my wife was deployed and I felt like I had learned a lot and grew as a person...and I guess I write reflections when I feel I have something to share and to teach the world. But not this year. This year was about relaxing...about taking a deep breath and letting the New Year come in as what it is: just another date, just another day on the calendar with no real significant meaning or power over anyone or anything.

I just wanted to...be chill, be grounded, and enjoy the night with a glass of sparkling cider and then some whiskey in hand. It was nice.

But I am glad the holidays are over. Cards were sent out, gifts were exchanged...and I am done baking cookies for a solid few months. lol.

But yeah...that's all I have I guess. sweatdrop

I feel like there was something much more profound I had to say when I planned to write this...but, I guess it just wasn't that important. rofl