Once again all my entries failed miserably at the Runway, losing themselves in the limbo. And also once again that one little voice whispers to me: "Why don't you give up already ? This Runway sh*t is a waste of time! They'll just keep thrashing your avatars again and again until you snap!"
I should be feeling myself like sh*t or hopeless by now but strangely... I don't. You know why ? Because these "epic failures" don't define me at all. I'm not "worthless" or "trash" just because mostly of my avi attempts apparently "suck ass" and "aren't never good enough" to be exposed to the public, you know.
Loses are temporary, as well as victories. Instead of finding self-worth, self-approval and self-validation on others or contests this "quest" for validation needs to start inside myself.
If people find my avatars "a pile of low budget sh*t", fair enough. That's their problem, not mine. Can't please everybody. Instead of pitting myself, how about learning from the failures and mistakes I make ?
So, STFU, inner negative voices: I'll. Be. Fine.
And so, the Journey of Life continues its course...