Today I had to let my boyfriend's dog out for a walk while he and his parents were at work which normally isn't a big deal and I actually enjoy walking her. I leave to go to my eye appointment and I get a text from him saying his parents might pay me for it which is really nice if i can make an extra few bucks here and there especially while i'm trying to pay off my $2,100 debt :/ which isn't bad! .... If i werent making only like $160-$190 a week with bills and well, a smoking habit and i'm not talking about a $10 pack a cigarettes a week more like $80 a bag every not even two weeks which needs to ******** stop i don't care if my boyfriend pays the other half it's still ******** expensive leaving me broke as ******** BUT it does help with stress i'll admit. Therapy would be an option if i wasn't looking for an under the table gig right now because debt alone on non-bill weeks takes about $150 of my check sad I also get tips at work but considering it's a coffee shop it's really only like $7 a shift but it does slightly help if i need something quick or whatever. I don't know... i'm kinda depressed by the whole situation of being broke. On top of it I came home from the eye appointment and the electricity was shut off. My mother works so damn hard and no matter what my dad SAYS he does it's not enough. he can actually get a small part time job and even contribute ******** $50 a week extra or some petty s**t like that, it's still an extra $200 a month which is better than what he's doing now. I try to support myself as much as possible in the house because I know resources are slim to barely anything. *sigh* I want to do more I truly do. my mom also owes me money which I don't want to say anything because she already knows in addition to the bills not being fully paid, I don't want to stress her out anymore. I paid her cell phone bill last month too sad I hate being like this but if one struggles, we all do until were in better shape I guess were left like this.
ShotGlassOfRainbows_ · Thu Sep 14, 2017 @ 06:00pm · 0 Comments |