I usually feel really obligated to fulfill certain duties. Especially in a romantic relationship. I know that's stupid, and backwards thinking... but that's just what I usually do. I'm glad I found something, just a voice in my head, that makes me feel like I am not, or ever obligated to do something I don't want to. Like everything I do for that person is 100% my choice, my will, and my joy to do. It isn't a chore to do anything, but a personal joy to do. And that... to feel free to do as I wish... and to wish to do those things... and NOT feel obligated, like I'm being forced to... that's it makes me want to cry with a sense of peace I never knew I could feel. Perhaps that's just something that comes with age.
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