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Thought I would enter a new entry as there hasn't been much activity on here in a while. sweatdrop
I finally have a social life now because I finished a pretty important test today. It went okay, but Im really worried about one of the sections because it was incredibly difficult so I had no choice but to guess.

Anywho, I just kind of don't like growing up and being an adult. Part of the reason why I really like going on here is because I feel like im going into a new world where I don't have to face reality. I know, its not a good solution to real life problems. But, it helps me forget things for a while...

I wish I lived a fantasy life where the world was so much more different than what it is today. Like Lord of the Rings, where you go on adventures. I don't see the adventure in real life. Im not okay with living my life working for most of my life for some meaningless purpose. I want to live a fulfilling life where Im not going through the motions. If I think about the meaning of life it really depresses me because I just don't get what the point of all it is. But, the minute I start questioning everything, I try to get myself to snap out of it because it can make me quite upset. I'm cursed with over-thinking everything. I just can't live a mundane meaningless life where I contribute to this stupid society and one day leave the earth. I wish there was more to life than what it is.

Sorry, for being depressing. It's my mood today. Tomorrow i'll feel better and more like myself but everyone has these days where they are like.. whats the point?