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I just finished up the boss fight between them, & ofc. K-Sha admitted she really loves Noire, & noire tried to be all "uhh i...like you.... >/////<" it was so cute

It makes me so sad though, I don't have anything that sweet in my life

I don't have anyone in my life who's super "ooooooomg I love you~~ ^////^" about me :S

I mean, I want that kind of bond... I want someone to come along and just make me slowly fall for them, little by little, I want that feeling that I'm falling from somewhere high, and it's scary and you don't know what's going to happen, but then this person is waiting at the bottom to catch you with a giant soft blanket of love, and they just wrap you in it, and you're so warm and comfy and happy and it just wraps around you so completely that you can never get out

I want that so much. I'll never have it, I know. I'll never have those amazing feelings, because when I start falling, it feels like I get hung along the way, I just get stopped mid-air, and they're sitting there staring at me from above, like "uhh what are you doing..?"

Or I'll fall completely, and when I get to the bottom, there's no one there, so I just hit the ground, and it hurts, it hurts so ******** bad.. and I just lay there, for a while. I lay there broken and defeated and I stare at the sky wondering.

Right now I have a bungie cord attached to me, because I know better, and so I start falling, but before I go too far I get yanked back up, and i't slike "man that was close, there's nothing down there for you, you know there's nothing down there for you, but you enjoy the thrill of falling, you like the sensations of the fantasy" and its true, all true.