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I couldn't tell him when I left how I felt before I left, and I had wanted to so bad...

I'm so sorry. Please don't hate me. It was for the greater good, I promise.

The seashell that sat in the middle of my necklace cut into my skin as I gripped it, staring over the side of the ship I sailed on. It was interesting, not coming to Gaia in a crate full of rotting bananas this time. A wonderful change, if you were to ask me. I just wish it hadn't been so overcast. It was almost like impending doom. Then again, it almost encompassed the mood I was in. How was I going to explain everything to him, to my family?

It's not every day your father's youkai clan send you an ultimatum to kill them if you didn't come back.

It'd seemed like so long ago when I got the message in the fireplace. The hissing and spitting was almost so loud that I was surprised it didn't wake everyone up. The message was clear. You must come back to Japan. You must come alone. You must not tell anyone where you are going, or we will kill them before your eyes.

They were waiting for me when I got there... the neko youkai clan. They attacked me almost as soon as I stepped foot in my homeland. Everything went red...

And I'd killed one...

Oh Gods, I'd never killed anyone before, and I'm a little surprised that in all of the confusion, a hanyou stood tall with the blood of a tai youkai on her claws.

Stop thinking about that... But how can I hold my children with the stain of blood on my hands? How could I touch something as beautiful as he with these hands?

Lyra...

Please, for the love of everything that's holy, please don't tell me he's forgotten about me. Please say he'll forgive me for just leaving like that. I wasn't sure what I would do if I found he'd moved on, with or without someone new. What if he doesn't want to see me anymore? I couldn't blame him if he did. I left without telling him where I was going.

I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought about him almost every waking moment of my every day trapped in the clutches of the Neko Youkai Clan. When I wasn't thinking of him, I was thinking of my family. And when I wasn't dreaming of coming home to my family, I was dreaming of coming home to him. I was so unsure how to think of him as, if I could safely call him my mate or my boyfriend or whatever... but something in my heart told me he was definitely someone special.

I won't even go into how many hot and steamy dreams I had.

I feel a little dirty for having had those. We'd hardly touched, hardly hugged each other before I left. And I'd certainly not tasted his lips...

It only took a little while in Japan to realize how much I'd wanted that. I was around demons who hated and scorned me and every breath I took. I wanted someone to call me an angel again. I suppose my mind might have taken my loneliness and the feelings that I'd been having for Lyra and ran with them.

Can't say I've minded those hot and steamy dreams, though.

But now I'm coming home. What if he didn't want me anymore? I should be happier that I'd be coming back to my family. I've wanted so long to see them. Has Julia grown any? Has Paine gotten better at her sword arts? Has Shippou's illusion magics grown stronger? Surely, Elysia has kept as perfect order as she could with my absence. She'd gotten the same speech Lyra did. "I've business to attend. I'm not sure when I'll see you again."

Things won't be the same -- they never will be. I stared at my hands again. And damn my cynical mind for reminding me that there's the chance that he wouldn't want me back. I almost broke down, clutching the pearl necklace around my neck.

It was then I heard a very familiar sing-song voice.

"I see my lady is coming back, we've missed her so!
But tell me, why is her face full of woe?"

"Myra!" I choked out, grasping the side of the ship and leaning down to find the siren swimming in speed next to the ship. She eyed me, eyed the necklace that was around my neck, and huffed.

"I see you got the present he gave you, then.
Gosh, you know how much I hate men."

"I'm sorry, Myra," I apologized without thinking. She just snorted, then shook her head.

"It's alright; to your heart you must always be true.
I know this as sure as my hair is blue.

"But please, tell me why,
Why it is the Lady does cry?"

"I'm just so happy to be coming home that I--"

"I hate to interrupt, that I do,
But I can tell when your statements are untrue.

"Something else is troubling your heart.
Does it have to do with your family and... man, and the time you were apart?"

"Y-yes," I stammered, feeling quite the fool. Myra was making me feel like a school girl with puppy love. "I left so suddenly..."

"Indeed you did, worried were we.
From Gaia, so quickly did you flee!"

"It wasn't my fault..." Soon, I felt myself spilling everything to the siren, telling her of the ultimatum and the Clan. She listened softly, not even twitching her nose at the parts when I told her I'd missed Lyra. She nodded and swam on her back as she looked up at me, her face crossing with her rare smiles.

"The man Lyra cares about you, make no mistake
The necklace around your neck is certainly not fake!

"He made that for you, diving into the water he does hate,
To find the pearls, he dove down to the bottom, where I was brought by fate.

"Yes, I met him while he made
The necklace around your neck, trust me, love like that doesn't easily fade."

"Love...?" I ventured. Could it really be...?

My thoughts were cut off by a call from the crow's nest. Myra disappeared under the water as the words echoed in my mind for a moment before I grasped what they meant.

"Land ho!"

I was almost home.

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