New laptop so I'm back on Gaia. I've always loved this community since i was a teenager and it has a certain nostalgic value to me now as an adult. I like how its grown a bit but not changed too drastically. Its matured a bit over the years, just like I have. Maybe not enough tho. I don't write as much as I should. I'm stuck in a spiraling world of disease and destructive routine. I'm emotionally stunted and its because of my own selfish reasons. I don't want to play the victim card, I've done this to myself, but I'm just trying to be honest. Put words on paper (or computer screens apparently). Everybody wants to change for the better. Happiness isn't a destination but a journey and being discouraged about past failures or depressed from heartbreaks past don't contribute to that journey of life. We only get one chance, one shot at this game that didn't exactly come with an official instruction manual. We turn to parents and religious leaders and philosophers to help guide us through and these might be the closest things we have. And that's okay. We need people like this. Appreciate them when you recognize them and utilize their advice to the best of your ability. This is basically advice that I need to follow, myself. Putting in a more tangible form might make it a little bit more real.
CandiedOnions · Mon Apr 20, 2015 @ 09:52am · 0 Comments |