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Peeps made a subject about how to "not do it". I'm guessing they mean the slice-slice method, but I don't know.

Actually, I'm wondering why the whole "self-harm" thing automatically triggers the response of it being the slice-slice method.

So, here is the "How To" of not wanting to do the slice-slice method:
1. Possible chance of rusty blade.
2. Possible chance of infection.
3. Possible chance of cutting the tendon or other things that give you the ability to use your hand/whatever.
4. Blood loss will rarely be actually fatal if you're only doing Le Wristicles. You gotta get like "balls deep" into both wrists to actually pull this off. Refer to #3 for what may happen if you try.
5. Since you know it won't be fatal, save the blade for "one last slice." Dedicate the blade for the last one. Save it; don't waste it.

Other things you should know is that I'm such an Ultra Lord that I barely even remember I have like 30 scars on my arms. I don't hide them; I don't care. I have nothing to prove to you.

See, if I ever decide to bring this up to peeps, I'm going to want one type of reply from you, otherwise you gotta stop being a b***h: "That's cool." See, if you're not capable of just letting it go instead of telling me how it "ruins my arms" and "shouldn't do that", I'm'a gonna tell you to ******** off. It don't ruin s**t. You douchebags make it your prerogative to allow s**t like sword-swallowing and Jackass (the Movie)-oriented shows where peeps deliberately cut themselves, mainly because they had the balls to do it. You don't, so stop vilifying me when you allow peeps to try to smash a watermelon with their ******** forehead and telling me afterward they're sane enough to not require therapy.

As for my current self-harm regimen, it manifests in the form of punching myself in the abdomen upwards of 50 times on some nights, and punching myself in the head if the abdomen-method "fails". This translates like this: I am highly violent; highly in the mood to stab someone. When all I want to do is go to sleep at the time I want to, if I can't sleep because my guts want to make ******** gurgle sounds all ******** night, I get beyond infuriated. I don't ******** feel like eating when I just managed to do same exact ******** food regimen as the last 3 nights without a ******** problem.

See, sleep at the time I want to sleep is ******** crucial, as is taking a s**t when I want to take a s**t, which might garner the same reaction if someone decides to sleep on the couch all night. I s**t between like 11pm-3am every night, the toilet is downstairs and I'm not comfortable with such proximity. If I miss that for whatever reason, s**t's "not" going to fly. Other times might be epic failure on a vidya gaem reminding me how much every Christshit doesn't want to admit they want me dead despite their world-domination-in-the-name-of-Christ behavior, and the fact that I have no friends, cats or cuddly sex humans. (slight emphasis on the cats since they can't lie to me or be anything other than snugly perfection)

How does one not self-harm at all? It seems like humanity is based off of self-harm. We have peeps running and doing "exercise" which deliberately lead to instances of passing out and severe muscle strain. You have peeps deliberately putting themselves in harm's way with boxing and other fighting things. You could just "not" value masochistic situations where others punch you in the head and get a "real" job, but whatever.

The same goes to Jackass personnel; same goes to WWE's Sheamus who makes it his persona to punch himself in the chest as his "entrance" for whatever stupid ******** reason. It's strange, because then other kids mimic him and Tarzan or whoever the ********. That's totes healthy; punch yourself in the chest cuz you saw someone famous do it. What's that nice term the SJW's use; ableist? I would think they'd use "enabler", which is an actual word, or "instigator", but enough forced terms and semantics for a moment here.

Isn't it funny how the ones who are so adamant against how "stupid" cutting is, desperately trying to get "us" to seek therapy, which will ******** fail against Le Shape-Shifting Therapist Bird Man, are usually the same sadomasochistic bastards that ******** love doing violent s**t and fully endorsing it? s**t, "we" all know I hope those NASCAR ******** crash and die in a nice Darwinian Justice form of events, but enough about those fuel-guzzling nimrods & hot-rods.

See, I'm extra pissed off. Spicy foods are my lovers' paradise. I could go literally every ******** day with burning the ******** out of my tongue. I don't care about you; ******** you, you emotionally secure pansy.

The strange thing is that my method up there at the top is really all you need to not do the slice-slice method. It literally doesn't cross my mind to do that. When that suicidey mindset comes in, then I only think about getting it so I can jam it in my throat. You don't need to do the slice-slice thing. Your scars are still awesome to me, so if we meet, tell me about them. We could have a big crybaby huggy-tiem session.

I also punch the couch when I get pissed off. Peeps say to do it to a pillow which is just, wut, really? Do you know how ******** small that thing is? Take the entire weight of your body and just pound the s**t out of that ******** thing.