I have a hard time understanding why people do the things they do and why I do the things I do. I like to think that I do what makes me happy without having someone else's feelings get hurt. But this seems to be simply inevitable. Is it just me, or does everyone face this issue? I'm really starting to think its just me. Or maybe I set myself up for these situations and ruin everything in the end. Maybe I'm just walking chaos. I never really know how fragile other people, and myself, can be until things turn bad. And things seem to turn bad often, especially today. Right now, I feel like I should just back away, take a break from the world because its just full of feelings. Feelings that are clear, feelings that I don't understand, and feelings that I haven't even felt yet. Its almost like I've been throwing rocks at glass houses, knowing I could shatter something, but being careless. I never mean to be careless, but maybe that's just what I've always been. I hate the thought of being careless, but its that part of me I don't want to accept. So for now, I need to work on caring, and not just about myself, but the people I care about. This may just be another one of those things I'll never find an answer to, but I really hope its not.
Sincerely,
Kat
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