My names Soul, and hanging on through the thick and thin only seems to be what I do best. Despite my looks I suffered just as much as the rest. And now every day I find myself fixing the best, telling them dont quit your unique, the world is in your hands.
Ha, I should take my own advice. Everyday I look down at my feet. When I could be looking up at the sky seeing exactly what I could be. But No. I hate my life, I hate every inch of this long lived lie. I MEAN REALLY! "I could have it all?" Ya right, I do what I do just to forsake it all. I let every one down, day after day. I would be lying if i said I didnt think my own life was a mistake. I can't help it. I've been hurt so many times its no surprise I can't keep a straight face. I try to smile, I try to help all these people. But deep inside, I only cry for them. I cry, I cry because it reminds me of me.
How alone I am. How I feel like whats the point? All this "talent" all this "glory" Why have it when I can't enjoy it.
I watch the sun rise, somewhere in the back of my mind. Pretending to smile as a tear strings from my eye singing a song i once knew. "is this the new you" "is this that better life you built" ya, this is real. This is the "real me" the "me" everyone wanted me to be.
The "me" who watches the people he loves disappear.
Soul Born Sin · Tue Nov 18, 2014 @ 02:49am · 0 Comments |