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THERE'S A PAIN IN MY ARM, I THINK I'VE DONE SOME HARM, & I REALLY DON'T LIKE THIS, JUST SAW I CUT MY WRIST, THE BLOOD IS RUSHING, I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING, THE BLOOD IS DRIPPING, THE PAIN IS UNBARING, I CUT MYSELF CONSIDERED A SIN, HEAD RUSH FEELING FAINT ADRENALINE, I DON'T CARE ANYMORE I'M EMOTIONLESS, I CAN ONLY BE AWAKENED BY TRUE LOVE'S FIRST KISS, I'M CRYING, WISH I WAS DIEING, NO YOU CAN'T STOP ME NOW, YOU CAN YOU THINK SO HOW? I'M BEING FLATTENED BY A BLUE CRUSH, A TIDAL WAVE GET ME OUT BLOOD RUSH, I FEEL FAINT THAT'S IT IT'S BEEN SAID, DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK I'M DEAD, NOW I'VE STOPPED CRYING, CUZ I am DIEING, HOPE YOU'LL MISS ME EVERY DARK NIGHT, SORRY I LOVE YOU ALL BUT I MUST MOVE INTO THE WHITE LIGHT.
SADNESS
CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP:
no matter how many tears i cry, u sit there & laugh & watch all of my, sparkeling clear taers fall from my eye, & land deep below that wonderous night sky,
yes i sob & i weep, but it's not ur fault, i cry myself to sleep, it's not u i was the cault,
& sometimes i wonder, who do i have to b 2 get u, what would i be like without all the thunder, what do i have 2 say what must i do,
no matter how many times i scream, i could cry a deep blue stream, & u wouldn't know, if u do it doesn't show,
u wouldn't c u wouldn't care, u never wanted 2 always b there,u wouldn't hear u wouldn't comfort me, u wouldn't even try 2 make me feel happy,
u'd just walk right on by, not noticing a thing or thinking, u don't even care if i die, so yea i'm sorry 4 everything,
i'm sorry 4 laughing, i'm sorry 4 b-ing stupid, i'm sorry 4 gapping, i'm sorry 4 what i did,
but i don't know what it is, & i don't think i deserve this, but i don't know about u, cuz u probably think i do.

DO U REMEMBER DECEMBER PART 2:
the sun is hidden behind the clouds, & the snow falls down in a blanket of white, & rain mixes in & thunder so loud, & i look up at the sky & it's a cold dark night, do u remember december?
i look out the window at the cold white sheet, i sat there thinking & wondering, & all the animals going south they fleet, & i ponder about almost everything, do u remember december?
do u remember december? do u remember september? do u remember october? do u remermber november?
do u remember what u said 2 me, do u remember how we used 2 be, do u remember how happy i was, do u even care that i was, do u remember december?
because i do i remember all the pain, i remember everything u had said, i remember getting caught & lost in the rain, & i remember what this all lead,
& i remember, & i think about it 2, i remember december, the question is do u?

DON'T:
don't doubt urself now don't hate ur life, cuz i promise u kid it'll b alright, please don't fret please don't frown, wear ur big lovely smile like a big lovely crown, i know how u feel i know u want 2 cry, i know u want 2 scream i know u want 2 die, but listen 2 me it'll b ok, cuz i'm here 4 u day after day, just please put on a big smile, i know it's fake but wear it a while, 4 me 4 him, 4 us 4 them, but mostly 4 u cuz u need it the most, & we're all here 4 u from west 2 east coast, so don't ever 4 get who u've got b side u, & if u do just remind me 2 remind u, i'm right b side u every step of the way, don't ever b scared cuz i'm here ok, so please just listen 2 me, u don't want 2 b who i used 2 b, i cut & i hated, i screamed & i waited, 4 something like this, now that i have it i treasure it, so please don't b upset don't cry, i'm here 4 u & here's y,u gave me strength u gave me faith, u gave me hope that's y i say, ur fun & cool & sometimes kind, so don't let love take over ur mind.

CRY: CRY: CRY:
kids my age think the're in love, but they don't even know what it is, they go out with someone & think they're the 1, but then they go out & break the other's heart, & the other cries
but i know how that feels, i speak from experiance, i've screamed & sobbed & bled, i wondered y & lost all faith, & then i cried
they make u laugh, they make u feel happy, like ur worth something, like u have a reason 2 live, & then they make u cry
i smiled i laughed i joked, i felt like i could fly, now my heart aches i choked, on all of my tears full of pain, & then i wanted 2 cry
but we shouldn't cry cuz if they hurt us, then they're not good enough anyway, cuz no 1 deserves 2 cry like that, & wish they hadn't experianced it cuz it's a lesson, so they don't deserve 2 cry
infact they should catch ur tears, they should learn the same lesson u did, the same lesson he she they did, they should learn the same lesson I did,cuz we shouldn't have 2 cry
& i know ur thinking, " did i do something wrong, should i scream & bleed, do i deserve what they've done 2 me, do i have 2 cry?"
the answer is no,"u didn't do anythingthey're the cault, u shouldn't scream or bleed, u don't deserve what they did 2 u", & suddenly, they've stopped crying.



NOBODY DESERVES 2 CRY LIKE THAT, & NO 1 DESERVES 2 HURT, & SCREAM, & CUT, & ERASE, & BLEED.SO, REMEMBER, IF THEY HURT U, IT'S THIER LOSS, 4 GET THEM!!! THEY DON'T DESERVE U ANYWAY.^_^!!!!!





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    Fate Ryku
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    commentCommented on: Thu May 11, 2006 @ 01:43am
    um, that was WAY to long


    commentCommented on: Thu May 11, 2006 @ 11:02pm
    DAMIT BRI I SHOULD BE PISSED OR DEPressed. but .............................................................. crying



    richie li
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    BreeBunny17
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    commentCommented on: Mon May 15, 2006 @ 02:09am
    IT'S OK RICHIE


    commentCommented on: Tue Jun 13, 2006 @ 11:44pm
    DON'T U GET MAD AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! ILL GET THE CHAINSAW!!!!!!!!!



    BreeBunny17
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    smurphbluu
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    commentCommented on: Thu Jun 28, 2007 @ 11:04am
    bree love, i really like your wrtiting. its awesome.


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