I think I actually felt what depression was yesterday. During 3rd period in school yesterday, I somehow felt really...empty and slightly sad. I thought it would be better if I cried, but I couldn't cry. Everything sudden became dull and boring, and it was suffocating.
Even now I still don't know why I was so depressed. Does depression always come like an invisible brick? Cuz it came with no warning sign, and I felt I was hit pretty badly.
I can still feel a little bit of that depression. Even Chester the kitty or thoughts of Anime Central couldn't cheer me up. Usually I start jumping up and down at the thought of Chester the kitty or Anime Central. I couldn't pray about it either. I wanted to pray, but it was stiffled back in my throat by the invisible brick.
I also had a nap today. There was a dream that came with it. It was a nice dream. Slightly weird, but nice.
In the dream, I dreamed I was in a theater as a 10 year old or something. I just suddenly got up at the sight of a pillar with pencils stuck in it and started climbing it >_>|| then I poked my finger on one of the sharper pencils and it started bleeding. Freaking out, I fell, but this guy in a white usher suit caught me and carried me to the first aid room. He was a nice guy, but he was too flirtous for my type. Even though in the dream I fell for him a little bit, but then I saw him with other girls and flirting in the same way, so I just stopped.
I went back to the theater again with Danka though. While walking down a stairs to get there, I saw someone. That someone shall remain a secret for now 3nodding
Overall, it was sweet, in a way. Yea, I'm done rambling for today 3nodding
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