Mmm~ I'm still having trouble with my memory but it could be the stress that I am putting myself under. I have school problems that are more than a student is supposed to deal with, brother asshole problems (withdrawing from my support system, aka my brother), work troubles ugggggggggggggggh seriously, and general expectations on myself. I've been exploring my sexuality and that is going well. I have also been taking my meds just about every day. Like one day I missed the morning or something... maybe the night. I don't remember, but I am on track again. I'm eating well YAY! Like, eating breakfast too, seriously that is a huge accomplishment for me.

I don't remember quite when it was but I had a dream that I had to repeat elementary school english class. In this class we were assigned a book report. I was not allowed to do mine on a "big kid" book because it might be inappropriate and would be out of reach anyway for the other kids to understand or look up later... aka not being a good influence. Well, I didn't do the drawing and messed up my speech. I only wrote the description and with that I would get 2 points. My speech opened up into this big discussion about things that big kids can do but little ones can't.. so much for not being a bad influence. It was set up like the scene in Peter Pan where they are following the leader, except it was a druggy cloud world that we walked around in and around a creek. It was like a supernatural version of behind Sierra Gardens where we would run our mile in Junior High (Eich). It was trippy as all f*cks. Besides, when have I not wanted to do a book report. Heaven's sake, I used to do them for fun in the summertime!