I sit here day by day watching as lessons go by uncomprehended by my mind. I sit and think of my life as its happened and yet see it as I wish it were. I see me as my inner image or I see me as I never could be, but I look at the now of reality and die slowly in my mind. To see through eyes that do not see, yet they show me pain and hide joy. The answers I have sought seem to elude me in the darkness yet as light comes me it does not reveal, but it blinds me to the answers I have so sought after.I do not seek the light anymore, but now lie in wait for my bloody rampage to begin.