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It's difficult.

You're an ocean away from me
So far that our time zones are different too
So far that you wake up as I finish lunch
You're miles and miles away
Thousands of them between you and me
I wish I could just pull our two shores closer to each other
And that I could hop across the gap of water between us
Just to be closer to you, to see what it's like
To not feel so alone, so far away from you
Blisters and chilling bones and broken glass
You're far, so far away.

It's difficult.

You'll be with someone else, with another guy who knows your biggest secret on here
Another guy, luckier than I, who will make me sad - sad enough to cry.
I'll be broken again.
I'll be thinking about you two together, saying "I love you" and "I love you more."
I'll be hurt again
I'll be wish that I was him so I be the lucky one this time
I'll be lonely again
I'll be so low that I won't have a reason to wake up in the morning any more
I'll be dead inside, again
I'll be lost, floating, dead but alive and not thinking of anything but of what I have lost
I'll be without you.
Again.

I just want to move on.
I just want to be happy.

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