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The Depths of My Soul
I need a break.
I just need a day, one day all to myself, without distractions.
I can see myself slipping, I can see how it's affecting me, but I still don't change.
I can't change. Not by myself.
I'm not strong enough for that.
I want to change.
I'm so sick and tired of seeing that same empty face in the mirror.
I'm afraid, afraid that even my best won't be enough.
That there's nothing more to me, that this is my limit, that this entire time I've been trying and I've denied it.
I've been unable to accept the fact that I'm not unique.
I'm not super smart or artistic or articulate or athletic, and my childhood just set me up for disappointment. In myself.
I think I'll ask them tomorrow for that day.
A day dedicated to myself and figuring out what I want from life, if I even need it.
I'll set everything aside and sit and think seriously about my goals.
You've made progress; that's undeniable, but not enough.
I don't want to do this by myself.

Polyester Dreams
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