I thought i would sum up my day...
last night prior, my dad told meh how worthless i am.
I cry to much and I'm to sensitive..
i cried and lashed out on ~.
Today i went to school had a good start with color guard and
watched "to kill a mocking bird" in english
i kept my phone close just incase
i even got on my laptop multiple times to be sure...
science was good till i noticed it and began to worry.
i didn't mean to snap at ~ i was just upset.
surely ~ knew that? i worked hard in history
and got a lot done and checked again on my laptop.
same as before really...
getting through 5th and lunch were easy,
worked on math to keep my failing grade up.
went to ensemble and learned that I'm not really
needed or appreciated much.
i mean, coming home from ACSI kinda proved that...
went to math and worked hard again for the last 45 minutes
of school... got in my car and went home.
song on the radio came on by the neighborhood.
"all my friends always lie to me, i know they are thinking:
your to mean, i don't like you, f*ck you anyway, you make me
want to scream at the top of my lungs, it hurts but i won't fight you,
you suck anyway, you make me want to die..."
cried.. got home and noticed the power was out, and had
been for maybe an hour. Dad had to go ask to put it back on.
while he was out i was yelled at by ~.
i am a liar, whatever ~ says goes..
then my dad came home and told meh he hit a puppy and
killed it.. the mom stayed with it in the street.
after glazing over all this my dad comes back into my room again
and says "my friend's son just died, I'm going to his place"
then i ate some dumb candy hearts. I'm laying in my bed
and trying so hard not to cry and be strong like my dad says.
but can you believe a liar? so i thought id just type this..
all my "friends" cut.. i might as well start again...
i kinda always hoped id have enough in meh to do so again.
· Wed Mar 19, 2014 @ 02:41am · 0 Comments