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"Fear is our greatest asset, for it is like iron ore, able to be mended and formed into a weapon all our own."- Brothers and Sisters

Where can one begin with a day like this.....My worst fear realized...on the very edge of life and death.....I had no words, no sounds, no voice...just paralyzed from the fear. And yet...I did not falter...did not cry...only reacted. Before I realized it, I had a gun in my hand and a young man on the floor pleading for his life. For a moment I believed I was the instigator, almost dropping the gun...but then I realized...I had defended myself. I looked back down at the guy and just steeled myself yelling "On your stomach and hands on your head!!!" I don't know how to work a gun but instinct from watching movies taught me to pull the top part back to chamber a round, which the fool didn't even do. He was now on the other end of the gun...I was in control. I called in police and they arrested him. Throughout the day I pictured the situation many times. I usually would break down and cry but instead just wondered about it. The fear had left......and what took its place was something more scary.... My friends took me to a shooting gallery after I told them of the incident.....and I discovered my dead aim accuracy. I felt shivers from holding the cold metal but found solace and peace. I had acquired skill through fear...and they cheered me.....What is becoming of me?....