My heart feels frozen over and I have a numbing hatred for everyone near me I secretly want everyone to disappear or go away forever, while the other half of me wants to be more open and caring and loving towards others I hate just wishing for people to DIE! I wish I could lose my memory and forget what has/had happened so I can start back over happy go lucky like I use to be. .... I miss that person she was brave in her own way and trusting but now I've died and I'm not coming back.....Oh please why can't I come back? I want to so badly, but I can't, I just can't and I don't know why?