So it's officially the beginning of Lent for me, so time to pull out my gospel playlist. I remember reading somewhere that gospel songs are like love songs, just between you and God, and it does sort of fit. I forgot something last night!

There was a one sided conversation on Saturday about me possibly getting more on my plate. I was talking to the ASM, and she said she thought I was capable of more than I thought. I was reminded that this was the same person that wanted me fired when she first came. I try not to hold it against her, but I definitely don't want to trust her too much. She told me I should be trying to move up, that this was a good place to get my feet wet.

That might actually be true, now that I think about it. Small store and staff, and a store manager that cuts me a break more than she should. I just don't believe in the things they offer. I hate how crazy they are about getting people to get a credit card with them, and the extra percent that you would save on your total purchase is only given if you get approved. That's bull.

The perks I could understand more, since the price goes down with how much you spend because you're saving that ten percent right away. It's good for a year, and online. But given our location, is it really fair to expect us to achieve our goals when it gets really dead, or the prices are just too high that we're chasing off old customers?

Prices are probably the biggest bone I have to pick with them. T-shirts for 28.50, and possibly even 40?! Not only can I barely fit anything in there (I have two bras and a dress that is pretty loose) but I wouldn't bother, even with the employee discount, because I know I could find something, somewhere else, I liked just as much, if not more, for less. I really hate that when I have tried to bring up in the past how higher prices have driven off previously loyal customers, the response I got was 'Let them go.'

Anyways, back to the point. I would not want to cut my teeth on a job like this, unless I became very desperate for the experience. As of this moment, I'm just not there. I'd probably mess up, anyways. Like, Monday night. There was an error in the deposit that I could've caught, but didn't. Oops. Guess I'll continue to study the finer points of customer service.

No, I'm not doing it tonight either. I really would like to think I would have, too, if not for the fact I work early again tomorrow, and I just want to sleep as much as possible. This is getting ridiculous, I need to find the right frame of mind to tackle this, but funnily enough, I don't think I'll actually use anger. I think I'm going to stop talking about this in general, though. I'm beginning to feel self conscious about leaving my ~*diary*~ open like this. emotion_awesome I feel really silly, and I'm not sure if there are other eyes reading this as well. I wonder!