I Wonder

Well, I have reached the point
Where I wonder what it's like to be alive
Where I'm curious
What's it like to not fake a smile
I wonder who even cares anymore

I wonder what would happen if I died
Hit by a car?
Took the wrong medication
I just wonder
How would that make you feel?

You would be sad
I get that
But you would move on
Everyone moves on

I wonder if I took this knife tonight
Would I finally be alright?
I'm waiting for relief to hit me
Or maybe I'm stuck like this