It Hurts

Everyday I go through this pain
These little reminders
Hurt me everyday

I have multiple flashbacks a day
I have become so quiet
I wish someday could give me a hug

I wish I could cry
I have been for the last few nights
Just because I can

I can't go to school everyday
I mean I have to
I don't have a choice

These agonizing days go by
Soon no body will be by my side
I'm so terrified

What if I lose it all?
What if this could be goodbye
I hope it's not