Sadness Kills

Can I just say that I'm sad
No questioning
No judgement

I don't know why I'm sad
Can you tell me why
This is killing me inside

While I'm sad inside
Everyone is happy
I try to play their game

I lose either why
I can't understand what being happy means
I'm sorry

I'm full of emotions everyday
Angry, lonely, sad, etc
I wasn't always like this

I felt happiness at some point
I think
I don't know who I am anymore

This sadness is killing me
It might end in my own suicide
I don't want it to

I want someone to help
Hold me
Just kill this sadness before it kills me