There times at random deep inside me i wonder what my worth to people in general with all my good things and bad things about me even tho sometimes i feel my bad things about me overshadows most things when i don't want it too. I feel like a freak and odd ball sometimes in this world with all my issues that from the parts of me i don't like. I feel like a old computer in a world where most computers are newer and i'm trying to function like a newer computer but find I can't always with one thing or another. People try to understand but one of my issues appears at random times and it either pushes them away or they understand me.