when my mom was pregnate with me and my twin brother
my father beat my mom and quit his job
he punched my mom in the stomach, crushing my brothers head
he wound up dead
my father pushed my mom down the stairs
because he had no cares
they took away my brother that night
if the doctor hadn't found my heartbeat
I would have been killed too
then at age one I realize the monster my father had become
at age two he had started to beat me too
if the neighbor had been going any faster
I would have died
his jeep had me pinned against the house
at age three my uncle molested me
when I was four my father slammed my mom into the door
when I was five my father walked out
I didn't even pout
at age six I thought my life I had fixed
then at seven the judge made me go with my father
no one even bothered
to see the pain he caused me
for every day he beat me
every night I cried myself to sleep
waiting for the day I wouldn't be beat
at age eight I was forced to be a mom
to the kids my father had with his second wife
everytime he told them he loved them
I felt like I was being stabbed with a knife
from age nine to age twelve
I was beaten raped and tortured
begging for them to stop
m head was spinning like a top
as my father sat there drunk
my heart finally sunk
when I was thirteen no one could see the pain he caused me
from fourteen to seventeen I hid my pain and bruises
at age eighteen no one belived me when I had pain inflicted onto me
as my cousin raped me all I could do was cry
if I screamed I would have died
at age nineteen I was raped and abused
mistreated and ended up feeling like a fool
cuts and bruises
pain no one could see
I bottled everything up inside of me
now I have someone who loves me for me
someone who can see
the pain behind my smile
how im like a child
no more bruises no more pain
love is not a game
I have someone special to me
someone who truelly loves me
he is my hero my everything
im so happy
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