Here I am again on here trying to type something meaningful but at last my words do not come when I call. At least not the ones I want. I want to explain something about myself to people, I need to explain things to people but I cant find the words. Please I'm not trying to find attention or anything like that. I need to do it for my own sake and to better myself for those that I love. Mainly I need a place where I can calm my mind and actually be able to think.

Now I feel like Im rambling now. I think I'll end it here for today. Maybe one day at a time I'll write here to calm myself.... maybe it'll work?