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Today my biggest fear in life crept into my head again. It is one of the worst feelings in the world.

The thing that scares me in life right now is that if something were to happen to me, no one will know about it. I will end up disappearing from existence. Because of how my life is right now, I have no friends beyond this computer screen. Some have moved away and some have just plain forgotten me. With the few friends I have made online I was able to be happy again. Meeting old and new friends.

But, if something were to happen to me, none of them will know about it. I would completely disappear. I have done nothing special in my life nor has I have been that special person to someone else. I am nothing but words beyond this screen and if that was gone I will be and no one will notice.

My existence is but a fleeting memory that will pass on and be forgotten and I will be nothing. Being nothingness. That is what scares me the most to the brink of tears.