It isn't your actions
Your yells
Your screams
That tear me apart inside...

It's knowing that
I did all this.
That I broke us.
A singular unit
That was so strong...
So beautiful
And fell in my actions.

I held someone
Who wasn't you.
I made her feel special
The way I want to make you feel
While in my arms...
I shared moments that
I should never have...

I would grovel on my knees
Let my hands be broken
My back in true shot pain
Nothing can replace the sorrow
Knowing I lost your blessing.

But I have to move...
No matter how much
I feel it tearing me
I can't forgive myself...