I'm Tannsy and this is my new account. Click here to find out what happened to my old one. (Journal entry is friends only)

User ImageI'm a twenty-five year old woman from the Ohio River Valley area. I got my Master's in December 2012. I love flowers, and my favorite flower of all time are sunflowers. That might be a little surprising considering my username is Tannsy (like tansy). I love sunflowers though because they're tall and majestic, and even in the hardest rain, the darkest night, and the fiercest wind they stand strong and bright. I like to think that's how I am. Plus, they're just so pretty! <3 I'm a natural enthusiast. I would rather grow my own food rather than buy it in a store, I don't believe in vaccinations, and if I ever have another child, my hope is to have him or her at home or with as little medical and chemical intervention as possible, granted there are no complications. My goal in life is to be a wife and mother, and one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through was giving birth to our stillborn son, Joshua Ryan, on May 30, 2007.

I met my fiance, James, when I was thirteen and we've been together since August 8, 2003, over ten years now! It's so hard to believe it's been that long. He was diagnosed with cancer in January 2009 after two years of aplastic anemia, and I have been his caregiver since. I couldn't imagine leaving him when he needed me most and when I needed him. He is what keeps me sane, and he's my saving grace. Despite calling him my husband (and he most of the time calling me his wife wink ) we are not married yet for insurance purposes. However, now we are currently planning for a fall 2014 wedding! I'm so excited! I dream of the day I can hear the words, "Therefore what God has put together, let no man put asunder." followed by, "You may now kiss your bride." He's a Gaian as well. His username is Enfynity. You should totally check him out, he's a pretty cool guy, even if his profile is way outdated!

I try to play zOMG when I can. I miss you all! Do I ever love killing those bad guys underwater! I enjoy the game, the people I come across, and it helps keep my mind off of things. It's a fun way to waste time, and yes make gold for my various quests. I also used zOMG for an imaging thing for a while and still do; sometimes I see the game differently. For a long time, I kept my avatar really ugly wearing peasant clothes, ugly green starter hair and evil red eyes. That avatar represented chemo and the animated in zOMG are leukemia blasts. Chemo isn't pretty and neither was that avi, but both still kill. I play as much as I can, somedays more and somedays less. As of late, I've really had to take a back seat playing. It's partially due to getting my Masters, but also because of my husband's illness. I miss it and everyone I used to play with! I respect the game and truly enjoy playing it from time to time. I will say though that the game seems to be completely black and white; there are great people and then there some awful people. I'm grateful for all the great people! n_n So glad that I haven't come across many awful!

I love volleyball, working out, theatre, RENT, and children. I want nothing more than to be a mommy to a healthy, living child.

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I miss Elmo very, very much.

Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes, and leap. It's time to try defying gravity. I think I'll try defying gravity and you can't bring me down.