I haven't actually been posting in my journal,
well, I have been editing my OC page but that doesn't count.

So, update post. I'll tell you about the current situation of my mindset.
I'm having a lot of dreams lately. Well, my mom calls them nightmares.
sorrynotsorry that my dreams scare you

They've all been translated and they all are saying that my subconscious is pissed
at me because I've been swallowing my emotions instead of facing them. HNNG.

Well, I had another 'nightmare' last night, I haven't gotten around to translating it,
so, we'll do that together~

The Dream
I only remember the climax of the dream. I was
heading towards a large pool of water. Too big to be a pond, too small to
be a lake. It was at the top of a waterfall, too. I remember it was midday, I
was going directly to the water. There was a strange man, whom I have never
seen in reality, following me.

His hair was black, jet black. His skin was a medium gray too. The only
thing that stood out, besides the elf ears, was his eyes. His eyes were an
icy blue.

He went with me to the pool of water, we stood there-- Just looking at it.
Suddenly, an alligator (had to look up if it was an alligator or crocodile) popped
out of the water and came at me. It was a dark, mossy green. As the alligator
began to attack me, a pack of brown-gray wolves came to attack the man with

I didn't see anything but the alligator, even it's belly was dark green. I remember
I screamed for help, but no one replied. I looked up and saw my companion,
watching me keep an alligator's jaws off of me. He hesitated before pulling
the lizard back. I remember that he had it in a headlock then snapped it's neck.

He didn't say anything, just looked at me. His eyes faded into white. I got up and
saw that he was pulling something out of his knapsack. He pulled out metal
shards, each carved with a design. He smiled at me and began to explain that
he needs 2 more pieces until he can fix 'it'. He had 7 pieces total, when I asked
him what it was he just put them away and said, "It's important."

The last thing I remember was that it was now sunset, we were walking east of the

Then I woke up.

To dream of the afternoon time suggest that it is time to put your energies to good use. Draw and learn from your past experiences and lessons. Alternatively, it symbolizes clarity to a situation.

Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant isolated, or detached. Alternatively, the color gray symbolizes your individualism.

Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind. Alternatively, the color blue may also be a metaphor for "being blue" and feeling sad.

Dark green indicates materialism, cheating, deceit, and/or difficulties with sharing. You need to balance your feminine and masculine attributes.

To see an alligator in your dream symbolizes treachery, deceit, and hidden instincts. It may be a signal for you to take on a new perspective on a situation. It may also represent your ability to move between the physical, material world of waking life and the emotional, repressed world of the subconscious. Alternatively, the alligator represents healing powers and qualities. An alligator also suggests that you are thick-skinned or insensitive.

To dream that you are running away from the alligator indicates that you are unwilling to confront some painful and disturbing aspect of your subconscious. There is some potentially destructive emotion that you are refusing to acknowledge and owning up to.

To dream of broken bones represents the discovery or realization that that there is a weakness in your plans or in your thinking. Your dream may call for your immediate attention to a particular situation or relationship.

White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

To see a wolf in your dream symbolizes survival, beauty, solitude, mystery, self-confidence and pride. You are able to keep your composure in a variety of social circumstances and blend into any situation with ease and grace. You are also a loner by choice. Negatively, the wolf represents hostility, aggression, or sneakiness. It may reflect an uncontrollable situation or an all-consuming force in your life. This could point to an obsession, an addiction or something that is beyond your control.

To hear a wolf howling in your dream represents a cry for help from somebody in your waking life.

Brown denotes worldliness, practicality, domestic bliss, physical comfort, conservatism, and a materialistic character. Brown also represents the ground and earth. You need to get back to your roots.

To see a waterfall in your dream is symbolic of letting go. You are releasing all those pent up emotions and negative feelings. Alternatively, the dream represents your goals and desires. In particular, if the waterfall is clear, then it represents revitalization, regeneration and renewal.

To see metal in your dream signifies strength and character. It may also symbolize the inhumane side of society. Consider the exact type and shape of metal and what you are doing with it. In particular, if the metal is solid, then it represents your libido and sexual desire.

To dream that objects around you are breaking suggests that you are under tremendous stress. The dream could be a metaphor that you are literally at your breaking point.

Seven signifies mental perfection, healing, completion, music and attainment of high spirituality. The number seven may also refer to the seven deadly sins, the seven days of the week, or seven chakras. Alternatively, the number seven indicates uniqueness and eccentricity

Two stands for balance, diversity, partnership, marriage cooperation, soul, or receptivity. It can also symbolize double weakness or double strength. The world is seen as being made up of dualities and opposites, as in the male and female, mother and father, light and dark, heaven and hell, yin and yang, etc.

Nine denotes completion, closure, rebirth, inspiration, and reformation. You are on a productive path, seeking to improve the world.

To see the sunset in your dream indicates the end of a cycle or condition. It is a period of rest, contemplation and evaluation.

To dream that you are headed east represents inner wisdom, rejuvenation, and spiritual enlightenment. You need to dedicate yourself to your goals, family, career, etc. The direction east also symbolizes the sun. Since east is related to the direction right, it can suggest that you are headed in the right direction.

To see muddy or dirty water in your dream indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to take some time to cleanse your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, the dream suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions. To dream that water is rising up in your house suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.

Well, if I got this right, my subconscious it telling me
that I'm wanting to be happy, light-hearted and just how I used to be but I'm
dwelling on all of the negative in my life. The man represents the wish to be this
way and the guide to enlightenment. His hesitation upon saving me was a
test to see if I have the ability to save myself. With that, I'm going to guess that
my subconscious is saying that I need to not do this alone.

Well, thank you dream for having a very
attractive man be the mascot for something I already know. I want to draw that
man, so badly. I think I might, later though. I wanna relax now.

Well, there ya go-- My update post for the people that read my journal.