I can't believe I started a journal and completely forgotten about it. Anyway, I hope I'll be able to remember it this time and try to post regularly. (As long as there is internet connection)

I can't say that this is going be my saddest Christmas but I'm really sad today. My dog of 12 years passed today. Sucy, my dog from childhood finally got her eternal rest. She died this morning and I've been crying since morning. My eyes are sore, I could no longer cry. I was the first to find out in our family. My mom asked why didn't I tell them, I didn't answer. It's because I don't want to cry out loud in front them, I don't have the courage to tell them. But still they saw me crying later on. Even my brother, my mom told me, that he's been crying too.

They say animals don't have souls but I hope they do so, that they can have their peace too with God and won't be forgotten. I hope that wherever she is, she's happy now that she's free. I'll miss her so much.