So Here's a ramble session for the internet to view if they are really bored and desire to rot their brains...
I have this goal, Iwant to achieve the best scores in the school or at least one of thetop BUT SINCE I'M SUCH A FVCKING LAZY PIECE OF SH!T OF COURSE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE ! I know that the teachers try to help me but I just don't like how they force everything into my face and demand answers asap. I don't know where I went wrong but I just can't do anything. Therefore I'm a failure. A lot of people would disagree but I would disagree your disagreement because in order to not be a failure you have to attend the race. AKA AT LEAST TRY! BUT THE FVCKING FACT IS THAT I DON'T EVEN ATTEND THE RACE! I PROBABLY DON'T EVEN SIT ON THE SIDELINES BECAUSE I'M JUST NOT CONFIDENT IN MYSELF IN EVEN BEING THERE BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE AROUND PEOPLE WHO ARE BETTER THAN ME
FVCKFVCKFVCKFVCKFVCK I FVCKING HATE MYSELF BECAUSE OF THIS I CAN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING! I HAVE DREAMS BUT THE THING IS MY HEAD IS SO FULL OF FVCKING SH!T AND FVCKING FEARS TAHT I CAN'T EVEN SEE HOW TO ACHIEVE THE SUCCESS I WANT AND NEED
I CAN'T GET BETTER AT ART BECAUSE I FVCKING SUCK I DON'T KNOW WHERE I WENT WRONG BUT IT WENT DOWNHILL SO FAST I DIDN'T KNOW UNTIL I WAS FACE FIRST IN SH!T
I'M PESSIMISTIC AS FVCK
I CAN'T COOK
I CAN'T LISTEN
I CAN'T DO HOMEWORK I'M FAILING THE CLASSES I SHOULD BE GOOD AT I TAKE TO MUCH TIME TO DO SH!T
AVERAGE OR LESSLOOKS NO FASHION SENSE CAN'T GET FIT BECAUSE NO FVUKING WILLPOWER
IGNORANT AS FVCK
FVUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUVKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKCJXBHSYKTYGFAJKSDGNHSBDG
THE FKING LIST GOES FOR FKING EVER I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE HOW MUCH OF A FAILURE I AM.
ALL I'M GOOD FOR IS WASTING SPACE, B!TCHING AND COMPLAINING AND A PERSON TO TALK TO WHEN ALL YOUR REAL FRIENDS ARE GONE!
I MEAN I CAN'T EVEN KEEP FRIENDS. THEY ALL LEAVE ME AND BECOME FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER ITJUST MAKES ME WANT TO DESTROY EVERYTHING
I CAN'T, NO ONE WNATS TO TALK TO ME
fuuuuuuuuuduckahgslydkvtuhsjfk.d/lt; I'll just leave now because I'm just a waste of space, I wonder how I haven't erased myself yet. I'm not even my mother's favorite child. She wanted a daughter yes, but she wanted a daughter who loved dresses, playing with hair, dolls, all that gross girly stuff. I grew up loving video games and avoiding girly stuff. I don't think my father even has a favotite. of course I'm not anyone's favotire.
agwd now i'm crying over nothing fvk wth I leave.
rogue blood angel · Tue Dec 10, 2013 @ 03:11am · 0 Comments |