Dec. 9th, 2013.

Log 5.

Well I'm feeling better since my last entry, yet, I'm struggling to regain my sanity. I don't want to be human still. I feel that if I find a way to not be human anymore, I'll be with mistress and feel safe. Day after day, my heart breaks more. I really want to be with mistress. It's almost Christmas and my Christmas wish is to be with mistress. That is all I want. Yeah, I'll like my presents a lot, but it can never fill the emptiness in my heart. The emptiness of being without mistress. I know I'll be with mistress soon. But will I lose my sanity first?

......Only time will reveal the answer.