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This is a place to let the monsters talk. Read the first post if you wish.About Me. is probably the best place to start with this whole journal.

WARNING: This journal contains explicit content. Do not read if you are sensitive to self harm, drug use or sexual activity.

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Depression Log Six.
Two in one day because I haven't written since things have happened.

I've recently learned that my mom has been applying for jobs up where my dad is rather than the town we live in. She now says she is done with this town and is going to take me and my brother up to be closer to my dad. However, I really don't want to move halfway through my senior year of high school, so instead of waiting to move, she is planning on moving with my brother and leaving me here to either take care of the house or find another place to live.

My mom is basically leaving me here to find another life for herself. I would be more upset about this, except that her and my brother are one of the main reasons I hate myself and where I am. They fight constantly and I can't stand it. No matter what happens, they fight about one thing or another. My brother is an a** and doesn't think about anyone but himself, but what should I expect from a 14 year old? He complains about not seeing dad often enough, but when mom suggests to move up there, he complains about his friends here. I'm pretty sure my mom is going through a midlife crisis because she has been jobless since September and has just recently started looking for jobs. She wants to get tattoos and get a job in Seattle. She gives out orders for me to do and then locks herself in her room like a teenager. She also expects me to take care of my brother, the three dogs and the two birds we have. I'm not a parent. I didn't decide to have kids. It's not my job to take care of my brother. Honestly, getting left for dead and having to find a place to live sounds better than having to deal with my family. It'd be one less thing for me to worry about.

I'm sure I'll look back at this and I'll seem like a pissy little brat, but I'm sure I'll deserve it.

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