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a tricky question some may think. I have had several years to think on this and slowly after each misstep have started to form in my mind what I want in a girlfriend but that alone is greedy that is not enough. Not only do I want someone for companionship and company. But I would enjoy just having someone as my friend someone to tell my darkest secrets and they still stand by my side. To often do I see friends in what they think are decent relationships but besides just having someone to kiss or etc they know next to noting about them. Someone that tells you your pretty but does not go to out the way to actually do anything for you besides doing that is not really a match material person for me.

On my end what I want in a girl is someone smart, classy, someone who can fend for herself, I want someone who will smack me when I need to be smacked or stand by my side for something we both believe in. I want a girl who I can cuddle and play ps4 or pc games with *xbox.eh you'll come on down the line*. I want a girl that I could take to a convention and show my friends that this is not only someone I am dating and talking to but that also this is my friend. A real friend that I would be willing to give my life for.

Granted I have never had a gf longer than a month. With one going for about 7 but she broke it off but on good terms. Sometimes I was told I was just to nice. So I grew a backbone and now I am more vocal in my options and actions. I work hard to make money for things I want and need. But at the same time I will spend a lot on someone I care for. And its not to show off how much money I can make or any of that. It is to show how much I care for that person. I am not the type of person to buy gifts for anyone or give anything away from free unless someone is just high tier on my list of people i like

But also I do not want a gf to make me happy alone. I want a gf to make her happy. I want to do things for her to make her smile. Take her places and show her that no other star will outshine her in my heart


but this is merely my thoughts. Its hard to find a girl to talk to that is decent. None have really given me a chance. And most the ones I do meet sometimes have their heads so consumed with guys or hell girls just wanting sex out of them that that is the only real connection they have with people they like. Is a few laughs and thoughts of sex they had. But to that end also leads to unloving feelings. Sex is to easy for most people and through this they break up after it becomes boring. I have seen it far to often and now just shake my head when I see friends break up and talk about how their ex never really cared but run back to them and i simply feel pity for them to know that's all they will be in the others eyes as a easy way to get a quick sex fix

yet though every night i sit and hope and smile at the thought of one day finding a girl that would give me a coin/ basket shot to make them happy. Who knows I may go another 3 years single but I sit and hope one day I will be able to be given that golden chance at happiness biggrin