... feeling this gloomy. I can't really say that I hate my life. My life is good, a roof over my head, food to eat, a car to get places. I have everything I need here at home, but why do I feel so gloomy anyway? Is it because I'm lonely? Is it because I'm 26 and have not accomplished anything? Is it because I can't cope with the transition into adulthood? It might be all of these things. It might be some of these things. All I know is, I'm gloomy and I can't help it.
It's been a struggle since I graduated high school. 18 and naïve. The thing that was hard then was trying to let go of my antics from high school and become an adult and make a life of myself. Oh, how I wish to turn back time and do things over again, so that I wouldn't have anything to regret.
Now, what if there is a way to turn back time? I honestly think I would do everything the same. Nothing would change. So, on the other hand, I shouldn't go back in time because it would be a waste of time. But, if I could change the past, I should change myself in the present first.
Heh... trying to rationalize my childish fantasies.... Maybe, this is what it's like to become an adult.